I just want one moment with peace. I just want one moment there I can step outside my body and be free!

my inside, becomes my outside

but it still hurts

what did i do wrong?

I want to escape me. I cant take me anymore.

I talked to my psychiatrist today, and she wants to set me on disablement insurance. Yay, it's officially now, I'm a cripple. She says it's just for a perode, and she hope I will be able to get my own job one day, but right now that seems impossible. She has given up on me....

So I had a b/p session after I talked to my psychiatrist just to calm down a bit... I can't eat normally anymore... I can't eat when I'm hungry and stop when I'm full. I need to eat much or nothing...

I have to go to school tomorrow... I haven't been there since last Tuesday. I'm gonna fail in all my classes...

Sorry, this was a really messy enclosure.. But I can't think clearly..

-Nemi-

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